Posts Tagged ‘waiting’

I can never forget my first


He is etched on my heart and soul

From when I was innocent and untouched

Not yet soiled by society

Still naive and hopeful

Passionate and creative

Dreaming of a bright future

But then I was ripped from my fantasies

Stripped bare

Raped by medicine and doctors and diagnoses

I was a virgin penetrated by traumas

It was painful

I didn’t belong

I longed to escape from my cage

And so I burned my Self to the ground

Resurrecting and liberating myself

On the ninth day

My first love never came to me

He never held me

Nor did he touch me

All I had was his words

Brief glimpses of his voice that I have since forgotten

And photos

Eleven years have passed

I am now married and living abroad

He is engaged to another

Yet we are closer than before

Nothing will ever happen that could compromise our evolved lives

But I do hope that one day our bodies will someday stand in the presence of one another

And our souls will greet one another

With love, light, happiness, and peace

Because out of that tumultuous time

Came a Phoenix

She has been reborn on several occasions

Over the years

Yet there is still the innocent dreamer

Hidden beneath the ashes


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Simple Value

Sometimes the value

Of a simple text hello

Can go a long way

Desert Fierce


❤ Me

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Can’t Be Tamed

My spirit
Like my heart
Can’t be tamed
No matter how hard you may want to try

Times like these make me want to give up
For every time that I may slowly start
To open my heart for someone
Something happens that dashes my hopes to the ground
Shattering my expectations into a thousand pieces

This is what makes me want to rip my heart out
Hide it away
Lock it up in a chest
Tossing it into the sea
And burying the key

I won’t stop seeing men
Not for you
I won’t wait anymore

If you prove you’re worth it
Maybe I’ll consider you again
But for now I’m living in disappointment



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Stupid Girl

Stupid girl, you fell again

For the trap they always set

Thinking this time you’d win

But no, again, you lost


Why do you keep trying

When you know that you usually fail?


You need to stop this endless cycle

Stop looking

Stop chasing

Stop searching

Stop hoping

Stop pining away


Because you’ll never find the right one

If you try


Instead, go up into the tallest tower of your castle

And retreat into yourself

Build yourself up to be even more amazing than you already are

Be awesome

Write poetry, sing, dance, take pictures, embrace yourself

Learn to love and respect yourself

Don’t care about what others think

Don’t need a man to make you feel fulfilled


Because you’ll never be truly loved by another

If you don’t love yourself


It will take time

But I’ll do my best




❤ Me

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Quiet my heart
Be still
For you are beating too quickly
And I have to force myself to settle you

Thinking of him makes you leap
Dance and sing in amorous hope
Dreaming about a possible future in which
You are cared for
Treasured and kept safe from the harms of the past

But you must be still
We have only known him for such a short time
And cannot know for certain
If what he says is too good to be true
The others certainly tantalized us with sweet words
And trapped us in a web of illusions
Breaking our trust
Ruining us for a future love

Stay patient
Be kind
Nurture your feelings in a garden of hope
The seeds have been planted and sown
He says he cares for us
We care for him too
And that’s all we can hope to do
For now

Let time pass
And watch the feelings blossom into a bouquet of red roses
Maybe he will be waiting at the end of the path
To take us in his arms and embrace us

Quiet my heart
Be still
For you are beating too quickly
And I have to force myself to settle you


❤ Me

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Snow White

Once upon a time

Snow White

Realized that there should be more

To life

And love


She didn’t feel fulfilled

Or cherished

Or loved

Just appreciated

And cared for

There should be more


So she sat down

With her prince

And came to an understanding

Her journey

For love everlasting

Would begin anew


Snow White returned

To her enchanted forest

And lovingly ran her fingers across

Her glass coffin


She carefully laid herself down


And closed her eyes

Waiting for that day

When another prince would come

And give her the kiss of life



❤ Me

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