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I feel like I’ve been living in a dreamlike state for the past few years

As if I’ve been asleep and under an illusion

Hypnotized by the lure of starting somewhere completely new 

Building a new life with new people and new adventures

But cracks are starting to form along the surfaces 

Exposing the reality beneath

I’m beginning to realize that not everything is as I thought

Or hoped or dreamed they would be

Sometimes I wake up for brief periods of time

Tears streaming down my face

Heart bruised and battered

I scream and cry and try to see life as it really is

But I am guarded by a beast that knows neither compassion nor empathy

This beast is my keeper 

Feeding me with little poisoned truffles of doubt and blame

Frightening me into submission

Part of me wants to escape and be free

The other part wants to see if I can conquer and tame the beast

Changing the fear into a much stronger love

I know there is potential

But I fear that it is doomed to remain under the enchantement

Only time will tell

If I’m able to fully wake and break 

Free from this glass prison 

Of doubt, fear, blame, jealousy

I do know that I cannot trust anyone around me

They are illusions of sincerity

At any moment they could turn

Thus Sleeping Beauty blinks awake for a brief moment

Takes a deep breath

And closes her eyes once more

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I feel haunted by Death

She entered into my life

When I was fourteen years old

And hasn’t ever left

I feel haunted by Death

She took my cousin when he was ten

She took my uncle and husband to my godmother

Who was also the father of my cousin

She took my grandmother

She took my husband’s father

She took my husband’s godmother

She has taken so many lives

Close to me and of people that I never met

I feel haunted by Death

She plants seeds of thought

That turn into ideas and feelings

Images that involve me and her

The thought that she may take me someday too

Sometimes I imagine how she would take my hand

And lure me into her home in the underworld

I feel haunted by Death

These ideas aren’t new

They’ve been around for years

I’ve never actually attempted

The temptations have stayed in my mind

Sometimes I tell others

And then they help me through it

I feel haunted by Death

I know that I have a lot to live for

I know that I am loved

I just got married

My new life is across the Atlantic in France

Don’t take this as a sign that I need professional help

I’m just sharing my feelings

I feel haunted by Death

But she won’t take me until I’m old and ready

death and the maiden

-Jenna

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You might think that you know me

But you don’t

You formulate your biased opinion

Based on your own life experiences

You judge me

Because it’s impossible not to

Decide whether or not you like someone

Free from your own personal viewpoint

You might think that you know me

But you don’t

I try to be kind with my words

I am a compassionate human being

I enjoy discussion

I believe in diversity

I like to be respectful

I don’t mind if you have a different opinion or viewpoint

But when you become personally disrespectful

I have a problem with that

You might think that you know me

But you don’t

Once my trust in you is broken

We’re done

It’s difficult enough to build trust in the first place

So if you betray me

You’ve lost me forever

That’s not my fault

You should have thought about how I might feel

Before you chose to do it

You might think that you know me

But you don’t

I don’t have time to waste on you

Especially when you don’t care about my feelings

Or myself as a person

So I’m just going to move on

You might think that you know me

But you don’t

Guess what?

You just inspired my newest poem

After more than a year of writer’s block

Be proud of yourself

Just remember

You might think that you know me

But you don’t

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Happy Birthday to my beautiful mother!

 

Ever since childhood her strength has been tested

There must be more to life in the one she’s destined

Yet she gets up each morning, her soul rested

Embracing a new day

 

The world may not see her angel wings

But I see them when she smiles at the sky as her spirit sings

 

She challenges life’s struggles with sheer determination

And plans to conquer mountains piece by piece in deliberation

I look up to her with such proud admiration

As she climbs higher, little by little every day

 

The world may not see her angel wings

But I see them when she smiles at the sky as her spirit sings

 

Her faith and beliefs do not go unnoticed

Our trials can be conquered as she shows us

How to bloom despite adversity like a beautiful lotus

Each step of the way

 

The world may not see her angel wings

But I see them when she smiles at the sky as her spirit sings

angelwings

 

❤ Me

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Wind whistles through the leaves

Whispering condemnations and judgments

Chattering, screeching, confusion

From above and all sides

As she stumbles through the woods

 

Roots of the established earth trip her

Almost as if with purpose

She does not take the time to brush off

The gathering dirt and debris

Increasing her burdens to bear

 

Lost alone afraid

Clutching what is hidden tightly in her hands

Reluctant to release yet knowing the necessity

She must find a place

Free from prying eyes

 

A towering tree proud with age and strength

How she wishes she could be

Is where she finally stops

Breath hitching and gasping for relief

Searching left and right to assure solitude

 

Kneeling down in the soft mossy earth

She digs with her fingers grasping desperately

Once at desired depth she reverently reaches for

Her hidden treasure

 

Taking one last long and pained look

She carefully sets her cloth-wrapped heart in the earth

Burying it beneath the watchful guardian

Where it will be safe and hidden

Until she decides to retrieve it

 

And so she walks away

Empty

darkforest

 

-Me

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Dark Waters

Swirling dark waters undulate before me

My bare feet sink into the cool, wet grass

Lightly dusted with dew and memories

 

My toes dig into the blades with slight reluctance

As if wanting to linger on the moments

But my resolve pushes me forward

 

I reach the edge of the river

Looking into its blackness I see ripples of our past

Fading in and out as scenes and seasons

 

Slowly I submerge myself in the depths

Sinking, submitting

And as I drink in the waters willingly

You begin to fade away

Until I am falling into blackness

My mind washed away with the waves

Disappearing into…

 

lethe

 

-Me

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Illusions

This world’s illusions
Hide the desperate need for truth
In our sea of lies

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