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Going through the motions as if
Under some spell
And strange influence,
Reeling from the sense of
Detachment now present,
Every time hopeful for a
Discovery of something meaningful.


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Faith and trust in women and relationships have a large impact on the plot and character development in William Shakespeare’s play, The Winter’s Tale. King Leontes of Sicilia and his queen, Hermione have a cooperative and successful partnership initially with his admiration of her wit and power of persuasion. Then the provocation of a handclasp between her and his childhood friend, King Polixenes of Bohemia, spirals Leontes into a pit of paranoia convinced Hermione is a treasonous adulteress. She maintains a steadfast conviction of her innocence during the trial and defends herself courageously until she faints upon hearing of her son’s death. In addition and perhaps more so, Hermione’s closest confidante and attendant Paulina shines forth as a strong figure throughout the play with the ability to influence and shape Leontes into a more sympathetic character.

From her strong entrance demanding to visit the queen in prison, Paulina is described as “a worthy lady, / And one who much I honor” (2.2.5-6) by the jailer. She is relentless and fierce in her defense of Hermione, constantly brainstorming new ideas to present to the king in an effort to make him see reason. No man is too powerful or privileged for her to stand up against. Well aware of her strengths, Paulina asserts, “I’ll use that tongue I have. If wit flow from’t / As boldness from my bosom, let’t not be doubted / I shall do good” (2.2.50-52). She has a firm understanding of the value of well-prepared words.

Leontes is incensed by Paulina’s unrelenting defense of Hermione and appeal to his heart by involving their newborn child he does not believe is his own. He is consumed by his false ideas so much that an oracle delegated from the gods has no truth or merit in his eyes. No one is willing to stand up against him except Paulina. It is she that reports Hermione’s death. She rails against him, shouting, “Thy tyranny, / Together working with thy jealousies / … O, think what they have done, / And then run mad indeed – stark mad! For all / Thy by-gone fooleries were but spices of it.” (3.2.179-180, 182-184). With her words, Paulina begins to incite Leontes’ guilt and reconsideration of his accusations.

Sixteen long years pass, and still Paulina remains by King Leontes’ side. Grief and pain have wracked him steadily.  Paulina maintains the strong voice of feminine reason, echoing and supporting the memory of Hermione in her counsel. As Leontes is being pressured to remarry, she asserts that no woman on earth could equal his late wife and requests the power to control who he would be with. His acquiescence is an indicator of how he has transformed over time in regaining respect for women. In an astonishing revelation, Paulina presents Hermione returned to life, and Leontes is overwhelmed with joy and surprise. Paulina replies wittily, “I like your silence, it the more shows off / Your wonder” (5.3.21-22). Her steadfast resolve to see justice fulfilled and honor restored make her an inspiration for all.



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(Hello everyone! It’s been a while I know! My life has been more busy lately, and just last weekend I had a birthday extravaganza! My birthday was last Saturday, April 13th. I had quite a fantastic time, and already this new year of life for me is off to a pretty great start! There are daunting aspects as well, but c’est la vie.

I wanted to share a few dreams that I recorded in my dream journal when I was a lot younger, in case you were interested in delving into the fascinating subconscious mind of a younger me.)


August 2, 1999:

I was near a castle when the guards found me. They put me in a peanut butter jar. Then they put me in the kitchen. The Prince came in the kitchen because he was hungry. He almost ate me. Other people came in and almost ate me.


August 3, 1999:

I was in college. After a while, I could choose my career. I could be a singer, writer, or a actress. I couldn’t decide. Then I asked if I could do all of them. They said I could do one at a time.


August 4, 1999:

I was an ice skater and so was Tara from my school. We had to find out who was better. The winner got to spend a vacation with Tara Lipinski. When Tara was up, she scored 7.9’s only. When I was up, I scored all 9.9’s. I was the winner.


August 26, 1999:

I dreamt that I went to Aunt Cindy’s house. My mom was there too. We had lots of fun. Uncle Gary was not there. One day we went to a concert. We saw NSYNC. We were up front. Lance was always standing and looking at me. Then we went home and went to bed. The next day, it was time to go. So I packed. When I was in the car I checked my things. When suddenly, “I forgot my bra!!!!!!”


October 10, 1999:

I dreamt that we got a cd order form in the mail. We did not know but JT ordered some. Then they came in the mail. We were surprised. He ordered a Britney Spears for me!

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Let us create our own private paradise


Where the incessant drone of car horns

Is replaced with the lazy hum of insects

Where the shouts from people across the streets

Are replaced by the calls of birds

Where the buzz of a fan in a sweltering office

Is replaced with the drops of rain pattering through the leaves


Let us create our own private paradise


Finding nourishment for ourselves through the fruits of the land

Wearing nothing but the skin we were born with

Enjoying the soft earth as our bed

Making music through the movement of our entwined bodies


I will be your Eve


Let us create our own private paradise




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I recorded a video of me singing one of my favorite jazz standards yesterday! Enjoy!


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I Am

(I wrote this when I was 11 years-old in 6th grade.)


I am queen of the world inside my head

I love to stroll about the unique lands that exist only in my thoughts

I hear the exquisite music floating about on the wind

I see many fascinating creatures that can also be found in books

I long to feel like I belong among others

I am queen of the world inside my head


I gain new lands as I read more stories

I can’t count how many I’ll have when it’s time for me to step down from the throne

I need to visit each setting more than once in my lifetime unless one doesn’t appeal to me

I wish others could see what I’ve seen and think the thoughts that I’ve thought

I wonder what other worlds inside the heads of others are like

I am queen of the world inside my head



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(I wrote this in May 2007 for my Honors Literature & Composition class during my junior year of high school.)

No one can avoid the world of imagination. It can draw an unsuspecting person into its endless possibilities in the blink of an eye. Some seek it out as an escape from a dreary, monotonous lifestyle. Others wish to find new ways to entertain themselves. Everyone has played the fascinating game of “let’s pretend” at some point during his or her life. With the help of a creative imagination, a small patch of woods near a neighborhood can become an enchanted kingdom or a grandparent’s closet can be a cave to explore with undiscovered treasures and the possibilities of dangerous beasts. Creativity and imagination are priceless gifts that add color to life. Visualizing while reading breathes magic into the words on the pages and causes the action to appear, plunging the reader headfirst into what happens. There is no age limit to imagination; everyone is blessed with it. When analyzing the film entitled Finding Neverland from different angles such as literary and cinematic aspects, it can be proven that this film, with its celebration of friendship and imagination, will withstand the progression of time and remain a classic for generations to come.

Set in London of 1903, Finding Neverland begins with the introduction of the writer and playwright James Barrie. As of late, his works are losing appreciation from his audiences, and the owner of the theatre at which Mr. Barrie puts on his plays is anxious for a new play that will be a success and reap bountiful proceeds. On the home front, his relationship with his wife is deteriorating, as is her faith in him. Barrie seeks out relaxation and inspiration at a nearby park. One day, he meets a family of four young boys playing, their mother, Sylvia Llewellyn Davies, keeping a watchful eye over all of them. Upon spending time with them, James Barrie becomes very fond of the family and begins to spend more and more of his time with them, telling them stories and allowing their imaginations to take flight into worlds of pirates, cowboys and Indians, and many other fun scenarios. He becomes very attached to Sylvia and confides in her all of his insecurities. Together, they provide a steadfast support to one another. Throughout the time spent with the family, Mr. Barrie takes particular interest in the middle child, Peter, who is bitter towards Barrie and accuses him of attempting to take his late father’s place in the family. James Barrie only shows support and care for them all, using the delightful adventures of the boys as inspiration for his new play, in which he politely asks Peter for the use of his name for the main character. Disaster strikes as Sylvia is found to be terminally ill. She refuses to be hospitalized and is set on spending her remaining time with her sons. When she is unable to attend the opening night of James’ new play called Peter Pan, he brings the entire performance to her home and finally shows her the magical heaven of Neverland that she had been so anxious to see.

This priceless and imaginative story is based on reality and is a classic for all ages to experience. Symbolism is important and emphasized throughout. The separate and closed doors between James Barrie and his wife stand for how their marriage is being closed off and growing apart. The powerful scene in which Peter destroys his makeshift theatre symbolizes his loss of hope and trust in adulthood. Sylvia re-pasted Peter’s book of self-written stories and adventures because she wished for him to continue on being imaginative after her death. Themes prevalent throughout the film are many wonderful messages including the ever important: don’t grow up too fast. Also a strong theme is one which states that an open heart and imagination can help take the pain away from troubles or illness. Spending the remainder of her time with her sons and Mr. Barrie helped Sylvia transcend her terrible condition and find the beauty of a vivid imagination. This film truly helps put the faith back into people’s lives and should be considered timeless throughout the ages.

The acting portrayal and cinematic aspects enhanced the film, making the storyline all the more wonderful. Johnny Depp’s interpretation of James Barrie was inspiring and highly believable. His facial expressions truly helped viewers see his inner-child and playfulness. It was interesting how Mr. Barrie seemed more uncomfortable and ill at ease around adults whereas, around children, he brought out his true colors and love of life’s adventures and magical possibilities. His voice was very effective when carrying out the emotional intensity of scenes, especially when he confided in Sylvia of the time when his older brother died and he himself so desperately vied for his mother’s attention and fondness. It was also then that he introduced Sylvia to the world of Neverland. The low tones and soft lilt of his subtle Scottish accent brought special life to his character. An extremely difficult scene to act out must have been when Peter Davies, played by Freddie Highmore, destroyed his theatre and vented his anger over how every adult was deceiving him, causing him to lose his faith and trust in adulthood.

Camera angles and music selections were also priceless assets in creating this timeless film. The scenery of the park, fields, country cottage, and Neverland were absolutely breathtaking along with the chosen views from the audience’s standpoint. At Peter Pan’s opening night, the soaring of the camera demonstrated Peter’s realization and enjoyment of the play. Visual effects such as the scene on the pirate ship and the circus helped enhance Barrie’s imagination and creativity. After the scene in which Sylvia was exploring Neverland, there was a fade-out that showed the end of her life. Also, the end of the film had a fade to white to demonstrate the bright hope and future to come. Furthermore, the music helped enhance the mood and would crescendo with excitement. A boy’s choir sang throughout, promoting childlike innocence and playfulness. It helped the viewer be transported into the magical world of James Barrie’s imagination. At times, there was no music playing in the background to place emphasis rather on dialogue and movement than an orchestra. Every aspect of this film was a treasure to cinema, enabling this movie to be a beloved classic for years to come.

The doors to the world of imagination are never closed. They are always open and ready for a visit at any time. Creativity should never be hindered or oppressed, for in creativity there is character and growth. Individuality is shaped and molded by a healthy imagination. Keep faith strong and always keep the child inside alive.


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