Archive for November, 2011

Feeling Before Bed

Just be straightforward with me please because

Every moment such

As this causes me to be one step closer to

Losing my mind with worry

Over what to think or believe. What’s become of

Us that has changed? I have been nothing other than my

Self, whereas you,

You’re different. And it’s causing a rift.


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Fear’s Hunt

I’ve been sick with the flu and a fever since Monday, hence my silence on here. And now Thanksgiving weekend is upon us. I’ll be out of town visiting relatives and friends out of state Thursday through Sunday. It will be a nice change of scenery but unfortunately not from the duties and obligations of classes. The six-hour drive will allow for time to make a decent dent in all of my books to read and writings, though.

Anyways, I have a new poem for you. Enjoy.

And Happy Thanksgiving! I’m grateful for each and every one of you readers.


A pack of beasts were on the hunt

Matted gray fur

Spittle flying from their mouths

Teeth bared

Ready to rip out the heart

Of the fleeing maiden


Her breath failing

Heart bursting

Legs heavy weights

Pained with the exhaustion

From running

As her very life depended upon her speed


And strength of will

To survive


She was running for what seemed like ages

When her legs suddenly gave out

And she fell to the mossy

Damp ground

Gasping for air

And sobbing for mercy


The pack surrounded her on all sides

And gazed at her with glowing yellow eyes

That seemed to stare into her very soul

Snapping at the air

Ready to tear into her soft flesh

And devour her entirely

Even her bones


Fear filled the maiden


Without seeing a way out

These wolves cared nothing of her feelings

Could not understand her cries for mercy

Their hunger consumed every sense


But then a white light so bright

That it temporarily blinded every eye

Came into the copse of trees

The beasts whined and retreated

For it was the Archangel himself

Appearing in the clearing

Baring his shining sword

Glowing with holy light


He had no need to slaughter and shed blood

For the creatures themselves fled

With tails between their legs


The maiden gazed at this immortal being

In wonder and astonishment

An angel came from Heaven

And chose to save her life

With sympathy


And love


He reached out a hand

And pulled her to her feet

Allowing his divine protection

To seep into her very being

Filling her with strength

Beyond this world

To continue to live and love

With all of her might

❤ Me

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Too bad you didn’t reach

Out and communicate enough before we made our

eXits from each other’s lives.

I really thought better of you and your so-called

Care for me. Never mind.


You can say whatever you like to your friends;

I’m not the toxic one.


(I just had to get this out. Going to bed stressed out and pissed off is not something I like doing. My weekend was going very well until I read something my ex wrote in reference to me. So now it’s time for me to find things that will make me happy before I go to bed.

Well, I have plenty of homework to do, books to read, music to listen to, and so much more that I’ll have plenty to get him off of my mind. Plus, I can always Skype B. He has a magical way of making me go to bed with a smile that shines all the way from my mouth, to my heart, to my entire self.

I don’t need to waste any more of my mind on J.)

Have a good night,



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You have disappeared from my life

Without a last word

Without a parting glance

You simply turned away

Never looking back


And you left me here

Without a reason

Without an answer

To the endless circle of questions

My mind kept asking


I am no stranger to endings

My first love across the sea

One day removed me from his life

And since then my ocean of memories

Has ebbed and flowed with the tide of time

Bringing recovery with the fresh new waters


But you touched a different part of my heart

Not simply fantasy but reality

Our bodies touched and merged as one

And I believed our souls did as well

For not simply a few months

But three years


My heart has been bruised



And beaten


What you did was worse


You took the piece of my heart

That I gave you

And ripped it out

Leaving a hole that never can be filled

A hollow space void of thought or emotion

That I can no longer feel or touch


Now you are nothing but a ghost to me

Your clothes you left behind will be given away

For I cannot bring myself to attempt to open

A channel for us to possibly reunite


As much as closure would soothe my mind

I do not think I can bring myself to risk

My health and my heart ever again

When it comes to you


Your thoughts

Your words

Your hands

Can no longer touch me

I cannot feel you near me



And so I release my memories of


Into the crisp cool winds

Heralding change and the new

Letting you go

Wherever life takes you


I try not to bear this void

Any ill will

Instead focusing on now

And the love I have from another

Someone wonderful

Along with that of my friends


But it is difficult

Having emptiness and


Surround me


Leave me to be me

In all that I can and will be

And free


Please hear this plea

At least



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The crisp cool air blows through my hair

Tickling my face with the tendrils

Flying free

As I rush to classes


It kisses my cheeks and whispers in my ears

Congratulating me on this new feeling

Of liberation

From the weight of the world


No longer do I need to worry about Wednesday

The burden has been lifted

And my time has been released from its bondage

Three hours earlier now


This feels wonderful

And I do not feel the least shred

Of guilt

For choosing my health over homework


❤ Me

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